Is it possible to grieve over someone you’ve only met briefly once?
A while ago (actually, quite a few months ago) T and I were working together, and got a message about a tractor that had tore down a power-line (low-voltage), and we had to fix it.
We went, and the dude with the tractor helped us fix it. He were around 20-25ish, didn’t really think anything more about that job, ’cause it were just that, a job.
Then, a couple of weeks later, T told me that the dude with the tractor had asked around about me, in the likes of “she’s so “delicious”", “she should ditch that ambulancedude she’s with and be with me instead” (XD it’s kinda hilarious actually), stuff like that.
I just laughed it off, ’cause T told me he’s a “ladiesman”.
Anyhow, a week or so after she told me that, he tried to add me to Facebook. I rejected ofcourse, ’cause I don’t know this kid, nor interested in getting to know him.
The week before last (me thinks), he were in a carcrash not far from were I live (a couple of miles), and he were sent to Trondheim with the ambu-helicopter.
Friday he died of the injuries he got in the crash.
I have mixed feelings. He’s less than a year older than me, and.. well, dead.
I only met him once, but when you get that kind of attention, you get a little bit more involved, you know..
So.. :S I dunno. I’m sad because he’s never going to celebrate his 23rd birthday. I’m kinda sad I didn’t get to know him, and yet, I’m glad I didn’t get to know him, because that would make things harder.
My mom probably know that something is troubling me. We have a “connection”, like she know that I have a really though time emotionally.